"This Is It." It is September 14, 2009 and I am at my highest weight ever. I'm 5'5" and weigh 320 pounds. That's right. I'm posting my weight on a blog for the whole world to see. That alone should be inspiration! In a way, I think "I don't know how I got to this point," but in other ways, I do know. Am I ashamed? No. But, I am disappointed in myself. I have high cholesterol and borderline high blood pressure. I have talked my doctor into letting me stay off the high cholesterol medication, vowing to eat healthy and exercise. I really do not want to be on medication at the age of 33. I'm too young for that! I am at the point where I feel like I HAVE to do SOMETHING about my weight. I have a toddler who needs me around for a long time, and a husband who wants me around for a long time. I've put this off, I think because I'm scared and I feel hopeless at times. But, I've decided THIS IS IT! I HAVE to do this. I've lost almost 80 lbs before, so I know I CAN do it. Right now, I'm 100 lbs heavier than my weight when I got married in 2004. Sometimes, in my mind I just think "what's the use, I'll just gain it back AGAIN!" I am going to STOP those negative thoughts and LOSE IT FOR GOOD! And I'm not just going to lose weight, I'm going to do it in a very healthy way. I plan to exercise moderately, eat healthy, and nurture myself psychologically. My tools will be the Weight Watchers Points system and the book "The Complete Beck Diet For Life" by Judith Beck. And, of course, this blog and YOU, my readers! I welcome any comments and suggestions from all of you! Thank You for taking this journey with me. I look forward to sharing the joys of celebration, as well as the tears of disappointment with you.
